SO, I'm sitting at my desk. The clock on the wall is slowly ticking away the minutes - ten after five, I should be going. But, I can't and thus the source of my frustration. What began as a simple access database has turned into developing a BC4J application --> I am NOT a programmer. I know the basics of scripting, tagging and relational databases. But this is over the top. I've spent the last 2 hours staring at 5 lines of code wondering why in one case they query the database through a view object and the other with an SQL statement. I suppose it doesn't matter much at this point since I can't get either to work.
I can't stop daydreaming about places I should be going or other things I should be doing or even just getting in my car and driving home with the windows down listening to "Autumn in New York."
Last night I went out and bought a "struts for java developers" book from the supergeek section of Barnes and Nobles and then spent most of the night reading it, encouraging me that today I would understand this much better than yesterday... which to some extent is true. Unfortunately, I spent the day fixing something that broke for an unapparent reason putting me yet another day behind... and so I wonder as I look at the clock... "If I stay late and finish this tonight, will it work in the morning... or better yet, if I work on it this week, will it be finished by next?"
Why can't the next chapter in life come already? Do I have to live in Cogville?
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